Monday, November 28, 2011

Dear Anybody That Cares,

I don't know how to have a discussion. Any time me and my mom try to "discuss" something it turns into yelling at each other. And with anyone else, I don't know how to stick up for myself.

It's like my brain shuts down and I don't know what to say. Five minutes before I had a million brilliant things to say to back up my opinion or whatever, but then in the heat of the moment I go blank and get upset. Or I don't get upset and I just let the other person think that they've won, or that they're right. Then five, ten minutes later all of my brilliant rebuttles come back to me.

I think it's partly because I've never had a real discussion in my life. In my family, we yell at eachother, that's how it goes. I think it's also partly because in my whole life I don't ever remember saying my opinion, or how I felt about something without being yelled at, or laughed at, or ignored. I don't know how to fix myself, so until then; you've won this arguement, you're right, whatever.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Warped Tourrrr

Was ahhmazing. At first there were a few blips because we (Tyty and I) were having trouble finding a car, but my loving mommy pulled through! She drove us alll the way to Ellensburg, and it seemed like it took ages. I think that was because I was so darn excited though. Once you go over the mountains it's very ugly. All brown and whatnot. Tyler said it reminded him of Arizona, especially since it was hot over there. So, we made it to the hotel and didn't get lost, and discovered there was a pool! Yayyy! Except I didn't bring my swim suit. Boooo. Whatever though, we made do. We swam and hot tubbed and Ty penguin dived and it was fun. Then! sleeping was interesting because the bed was mega uncomfortable and the three of us barely fit, and after some weird tired giggles Ty and I decided to sleep on the floor and leave mom and her snoring by herself.
In the morning Ty and I woke up mega early and got ready to leave. Surprisingly my mom got up too! We all thought that the traffic was gonna be really bad but surprisingly there wasn't any. So we got to the entrance at like 8ish or 9, I can't remember and we were pretty close to the front but throughout our wait people kept cutting and the line was all weird. So while we were waiting there was a guy with a sign that said "Don't get caught looking at titties! Sunglasses $5" and that was pretty funny. There was another guy with a mega phone advertising he had "fucking sunglasses." Ty and I played Eye Spy, and amused eachother for the long wait until we could finally be let in. Finally we moved forward then had to wait again and moved forward one last time and we--WAIT! I forgot the part where Ty caught me an Epitaph bag! heeehe I was so happy. :) anyways -- and we were in! There was tents and people and it made me feel like I was in a concert typhoon. We immediately bought water because we were dying and a schedule. Then we trekked to find a pen and circled the ones we wanted to see. We decided to eat, I ate a Gyro, Ty a hamburger combo. Then we saw a band called Demetri or somethin. And The Dance Party, they were pretty fun to watch. The main singer guy moved his hips alot.
So throughout the day we did alot of walking around and getting free stuff, yes, including a Trojan tattoo, and bought some band stuff. I don't know about Ty but I nearly died every time we had to walk up the giant ass hill that faced the main stage. It was so hot. Anyways, I saw The Ready Set, that was probably my highlight since my lowlight was Falling In Reverse cancelling. :( Jordan Witzigreuter flipped his hair alot and I hurt my voice screaming. It was a blaaast. We saw Every Avenue, and Go Radio, and Some screamo band, mostly that last one because the crowd was fascinating. Other bands too as we walked around. We also got some bands autograph, I can't remember their name though. So we got tired and really hot and we were both extreeemeeelly sunburnt so we decided to go back to the hotel. We swam and slept in the bed this time with mama. The drive back went by faster, but then I was sad to be home.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Shaped rubber bands --

are the coolest~ My super cute boyfriend gave me a package, they're supposed to be for police day or something weird like that. So, last night I had the weirdest dream. It was about how I had a dream that I was talking to the lead singer of Maroon 5 and he was just a super nice person. Then I was talking to my Creative Writing teacher Mr. Voigt about how I just talked to the lead singer of Maroon 5 at like 4 in the morning, which was normal to me because apparently all writers have insomnia in my dream-universe. Anyways, so then I was telling mom about my dream (note I'm still dreaming) and it's night time so I assume I was sleeping the car? Whatever so I'm telling her all of this and I'm looking out the window and I keep seeing like creepy people in black, I think they were rapists or something, and they were everywhere! So then we passed the river and there was a sinking ship and a great white shark was eating people that were falling out of the ship. (I assume this is because the aforementioned super cute boyfriend keeps talking about Shark Week) Then Mom drives us off of a ramp and we're supposed to drive from tree top to tree top, which was completely normal in the dream.. except the truck is too big and so we fall in like a sea of goop that when we get out and try to make it to solid ground it's up to our armpits. Then we have to walk all the way home, and as I make the realization that we have to walk home in the dark and there were all those creepers, I wake up and decide to write it down so I can remember. I must say, I'm kind of glad I did because I believe that's one of the weirder dreams I've had.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011


Once upon a time there was a girl who was very bored one evening. She decided that she wanted to make herself a website, but then after some reading about the differences between blogs and websites, she decided that a blog sounded more her style. After she decided to start a blog, she had to figure out which website to make one on! What a conundrum! After a bit more reading (this girl does love to read ;P) she decided on this lovely one, and hasn't regretted it yet. So she had fun making her little blog page and then realized she had no idea what to write about, and just started talking about herself in the third person. This person's name is Ally, and she doesn't really think anyone's going to read these but whatever.

Today, I'm going swimming at the YMCA with my friends. I refuse to go off the diving board.

I'm done now, I hope I amused you, I probably didn't though.